January 2012
1 post
Not meant to be.
I believe I’m not fated to have friends that I’ve always wanted. Not a best friend either. I have stopped believing.
And I’ve started to believe that I’m not good at relationships.
It’s just me against the world.
December 2011
13 posts
“Just because people do horrible things.. it doesn’t always mean they are...”
– Grey’s Anatomy (via eletheowl)
November 2011
8 posts
Come what may.
At least I know that I have loved, hard.
At least I experienced falling, hard.
I have a story to share with my children, grandchildren.
I have a heart that is now hard to break, almost.
When you learn how to love, maybe you would cry for me.
Suddenly, the world seems like a worn out place.
Do you even remember?
October 2011
4 posts
Unfixed.
After all this time, I still ache, questioning myself over and over again.
Since then, I’ve been so afraid to engage my emotions.
That I am using my head and not my heart anymore.
I just pray that I will not regret any of this.
3 tags
September 2011
4 posts
July 2011
13 posts
“Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake then subsides. And...”
– (via eletheowl)
“I laugh often so I suppose I’m gonna be fine.”
– Meg and Dia, “Here, Here, and Here.” (via quote-book)
The point.
I’m not cut out for this and I want to leave. But I can’t leave them behind, can I?
June 2011
2 posts
Blockbusted.
Recently, I’ve been browsing Facebook in a daze, randomly looking at my friends’ profiles and photos. I feel like I’m taken through waves of emotions - envy, sadness, regret, pain, love. At some points I feel like my life is a really boring movie while others’ are like blockbusters.
When I’ve had enough, I bring myself back to reality and find myself feeling...
If only.
If only I could still be energetic when I wake up early in the morning.
If only I could need only four hours of sleep a day.
If only I could crave for tomatoes and cherries instead of french fries.
If only I could love reading instead of computer games.
I start work in the afternoon, yet I still feel tired everyday.
April 2011
63 posts
“Out of suffering have emerged the strongest souls; the most massive characters...”
– Khalil Gibran (via kari-shma)